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Time passes like a whirl wind if you dont keep track of it.
I haven't. I didn't care to.
I thought it'll all change if I didn't. That it'll all pass and I will be happy again.
Now that is the dumbest thing to do.
But hey.. at the time it was the most logical thing to do.
Logic. Sigh.
Sometimes I question how I ever came to such "logical" conclusions.
and what exactly is the premise of such logic.
and why actually I put them in action.
what drives me to do such stupid things?
I have no answers to this, like I never do anyway.

My mind is muddled up like it always is even though I analyse every second I exist!
Isnt that tragic?

Mr. Jones sounds so soothing.
I look at the starless sky.
For a moment there I actually perceived some clarity of mind. and absolute peace. and oneness with the universe. even though momentarily.
I have a turbulent self.
and I'm glad to be relieved of it for however brief a timeless moment.