futile attempts

In my attempt to attain that inner peace that the gurus and the media go on about all the time,
I decided to try several activities.. hoping atleast one would help me attain it.
One was a walk to the Deer Park near my house everyday. Its a kind of a deer sanctuary,
irony being you see more stray dogs and crows than the poor deer, who are shoved up in one remote corner, caged, and fed by the pity of the everyday joggers and arbid spectators like myself.
Anyway, all aside, its a wonderful place.
So began my walks.
Now, I have never really thought that the fact that I am a Girl, has anything to do with events taking place in my daily life.
I see men and women as persons and myself as one too.
So, one beautiful morning, with a big grin on my face that I was finally begining my journey towards peacefulness, I walked on towards my heaven(atleast for the time being it felt like one).

Half an hour on, I figure im being followed, or atleast it appeared.
So I decide to skip the visit to the Geese and go see the stinking rabbits instead.
It seemed as if my follower also had a fondness for the rabbits.
Fear suddenly gripping me, I toured all public sites, the monument, the lake and tried to get lost at the turn to the District Park.
Being short I got lucky.
Heaved a sigh of relief and walked on.
Soon found myself in the midst of couples, angered by my intrusion into their private nests.. found with much effort to delude the cops strolling around.

So went off and sat in the middle of the park.
Little did I know that the clock had already struck 10 and in came families to picnic in the park.
Kids screeched, moms blabbered and bitched and the dads (atleast some of them) letched.
I even had to watch my head a couple of times for a basket ball or a shuttle cork.
Now I m not known to be a patient person.
So, just so that I dont screw the childrens' day, I decided to go home.

Reached home, made myself an expresso.
put on the radio, and by luck, and old favourite was playing.
As I sat and sipped my coffee and hummed to my favourite number,
I felt a sense of calm, I hadnt felt in days.
I ultimately figured that doing the things you like to do, give you that inner peace and the rest of the talk,
its all just blah!